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Anonymous, 17: My Father Drugged and Raped Me for Years – I’m Now Pregnant with His Child

From as far back as I can remember, my father has been a very violent man. He would hit my mother until relatives gathered to mediate peace, but they got fed up and eventually stopped coming. Sometimes, for no reason that I could tell, my father would return home screaming, scaring us into our rooms. He was always drunk and would gamble away his salary as soon as he received it, leaving almost nothing to care for us in the family. My mother ran a roadside stall which she used to cater to the family’s needs. Whenever neighbors asked about the bruises that she got from my dad beating her up, she would fabricate all sorts of lies to cover it up. All of this went on for over 10 years.

On a particular evening, my dad returned home drunk as usual, but this time, he came back with a prostitute and had the audacity to tell my mom to leave the room for them. Of course, my mother refused, but this resulted in her receiving the beating of her life, which landed her in the hospital for several days. Sadly, that ended the marriage, for my mom never returned home. Family members tried to intervene, but she was resolute not to return to the abusive marriage. My mom was able to secure custody of my younger siblings but not mine. As the oldest of his children, my father refused to release me to my mom. His decision left me heartbroken and traumatized because I was severed from my mom and siblings, the only stability I had in my life at the time. I was only 9 years old.

Experiencing the Abuse

About two years after my parents’ separation, when I was still in JSS3, my father forced me to take an alcoholic drink. I found it strange that he would encourage me to drink alcohol when I was not yet old enough, but I had to force myself to finish the drink because my father was standing over me and threatening a hailstorm. Everything else became a blur whenever I took the drink, and the only thing I noticed in the morning as I went to have my bath was that there was a thick whitish substance on my underwear. This occurrence became frequent, especially during the weekends; though I tried to recall what happened on such nights, I never remembered a thing. This continued for about 2 years. I thought about confronting my dad several times to find out what was going on but was paralyzed by fear because I knew the kind of violence that would result from questioning him. I decided to concentrate on passing my forthcoming WAEC exams instead so that I could gain admission to the university, and finally leave his house to live with my mom.

My father’s work required that he would be on night shifts sometimes, and these were the opportunities I seized to go and visit my mom and siblings. On this fateful day, I went to visit my mom, as usual. Unfortunately, my father returned earlier than usual from work and met my absence. On arriving home, he demanded to know where I went. After I revealed that I went to see my mom, he drove down to her shop, got into an argument with her, hit her, and left in anger, leaving me behind. My mother immediately went along with me to report the case at my father’s workplace, after which we went to my aunt’s house to report the matter as well.

On arrival at my aunt’s house to discuss the issue at hand, she called my mother aside to tell her that she suspected that I was pregnant. My mother dismissed this but was persuaded by my aunt to run a pregnancy test just to be sure. The result turned out positive. She took me to another medical laboratory, and they confirmed the initial test carried out. I was in shock from the news. Pregnant? How? My mom demanded to know the details of who was responsible for my pregnancy, but I had no answer to give her. Upon further probing, I began to explain what had been happening in the house with my dad. About the alcohol and the woozy feeling, pain in my vagina, and the substances on my panties whenever I woke up.

My mom immediately took me to the police station to report the case, and my father was arrested. He confessed to drugging and raping me on numerous occasions. According to him, it was ‘the devil’s handwork’ and he was sorry. No words could explain how I felt after his confession; I was shattered and heartbroken, to say the least.

My Healing Journey

At the station, I was referred to the WARIF Centre where I got medical attention and met with a counselor. I had several individual counseling sessions and joined the WARIF group therapy sessions too. There were days when I couldn’t sleep because I was scared of the impact of incest on my future and that of my baby; but the help I got from the counselors at the WARIF Centre encouraged me and helped me to heal emotionally. I have since then progressed greatly on my journey to full emotional recovery, thanks to the counselors at WARIF. Through the WARIF Centre, I was able to get sponsorship for my antenatal care and other hospital bills, and my mom was also able to secure funds to pay the rent for proper accommodation for us. I am grateful for all the support received at the Centre and most importantly for my mother who has stood by me through all this ordeal.

I still have concerns about my unborn baby, but I am constantly reminded that what happened to me is not my fault. And though I would not join my mates in writing the WAEC exam, I am determined to keep reading and take my exams at the next opportunity I get, so that I can become the Marine Officer I have always dreamed to be.

Dear survivor, please know that you are not alone, and it is not your fault. Help is available. If you have been raped or know someone who has, please visit us at:

The WARIF Centre
6, Turton Street, off Thorburn Avenue, Sabo, Yaba. or call our 24-hour confidential helpline on 0800-9210-0009 For questions or more information please contact: [email protected]